1. |
Weary
08:43
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Encompassing darkness
leeches into all that I see
I know hope lies beyond
but I can only see it in my dreams
Days wasted dying
nights spent in longing
Drowning in the nothing I've created
Killing myself one moment at a time
cursing every damned second
In love with the skies overhead
but hating the heavens I refuse to believe
Praying to nothing for the end
Welcoming death with open arms
though I know that all my
motivation is absent
Apathetic to all and to nothing
Distraction, my purpose,
decaying, my outcome
Engrossing myself in triviality
Disgusted by facades
while wearing my mask
Hypocritical
the defining feature of my life
I swear that I’ve tried
I’ve given all of myself to so many
who’ve wasted me away
and so I’ve grown weary
I’m so fucking tired of trying
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2. |
Memories
01:42
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3. |
Fragments
07:13
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Lost love, wasted life
lost hope, endless night
Lost friends and gained foes
lost all I held close
Lost way, wasted self
lost senses, endless hell
Lost enemies and friends
lost sight of the end
These smiling photographs
are sickening memories
tainted by betrayal
These fragments of my past
have long since been forgot
and should remained forever buried
in shallow graves
Lost meaning, lost drive
fire dwindles inside
Lost motivation to
be something to you
Lost faith in myself
lost the will to find some help
Lost concern for who I am
who I can be, just who I've been
Faint, mocking whispers echo in the dark
Shadows snickering behind the walls
Crooked fingers pointed in judgment
A constant dull aching beneath my skin
There lies an abyss within my core
Gnawing away, each day forever more
Wracked with fear and paralyzed grief
Lost all longing for relief
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4. |
Betrayal
08:13
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Another senseless wound
inflicted with careless disregard
unto an undeserving friend
offering a saving hand
How can I ever find the words
to mend these wounds,
how can I ever express my sorrow
if I'm blind to my mistakes?
Looking at the past,
cursing myself for my ignorance
Seeing with clarity
the righteousness of my damnation
Another treasure lost,
forced away through careless disregard
Another empty heart,
broken and lonely and writhing in pain
and it's my fault
How can I ever find the words
to mend these wounds?
How can I ever change my path
if I'm blind to my mistakes?
Looking back at the past,
cursing myself for my insolence,
embracing my damnation,
but still wishing that I could change it all.
“I'm sorry,” are the words I want to say
but there's nothing that can change my fate
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5. |
Sleep
01:49
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6. |
Never Wake
08:07
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hopes and dreams are thrown away
buried under years of pain
torn asunder by mistakes
as countless as the nights awake
staring at the barren white
blackened by the dark of night
mind tearing itself apart
screaming for thoughts to depart
desperate for a brief retreat
to the world that waits in sleep
I wish that I would never wake
to drift away to cold embrace
hoping to be trapped inside
the product of a purging mind
waking to despondency
the wretched day that waits for me
colossal chains, they hold me in
the heaviness of my burden
increases every rising sun
eventually I will succumb
and fail to meet that damning light
sinking slowly into night
abyss of darkness, swallow me
a welcome end to misery
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7. |
Broken
12:27
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I'm sorry I wasted my time
on you again
when every time
has been the same
I'd rather be miserable than have false hope
and I'm so tired of explaining
I told you my worries no longer consume me
I wish I was as strong as I let on
don't worry about me
I won't worry about myself
don't care about me
I won't care about myself
no concern is all I want
I wish everyone would hate me as I do
I don't want to be loved
I don't want to be loved meaninglessly
craving loneliness and cold
but I go crazy when i'm left alone
craving attention
hating attention
I promised not to hurt myself
but you took back your words to me
I owe you nothing anymore
all my promises are off
I'd rather be miserable than have false hope
and i'm so tired of explaining
my worries are consuming me
excuses and lies and loving and truth
(I want to die, I'm not even living)
everything and nothing, and nothing forever
you worry about me, I wish I could forget you
(I'm not even living)
everything is nothing, and nothing is forever
the hole in my heart
grows wider and deeper every single day
the less I feel, the more it hurts
it'll never go away
this emptiness is my only friend
she's always there for me
when everyone has turned their backs
she and I are closer than ever
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8. |
I Remain
08:37
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I am so cold
empty and forlorn
loneliness is all i know
nothingness is all i see
Abandoned
Betrayed
Forgotten
I remain
Stoically, I have endured
My world keeps turning but
the sun doesn't rise anymore
Lifelessly staggering through the days
to find my enemy and spit right in your fucking face
Just the thought of you, it brings my blood to boil
and I'll be laughing when you're six feet below the soil
Inside me exists nothing but disdain
My endless misery will be eased by your pain
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